Alias...Mina, Claudia,Kamui,Skids, Eiko,Edori,A-chan
Age... 21
Status... searching?
AIM...VprClaudia
Page...
LoveImpact
Reborn Day,Spunky Heart
School... Mt. Holyoke
Zodiac...Aquarius
Blood Type... A
Chinese Zodiac... Dog
Color... Red~! And pink. And rainbows. And sparkliness
Foods... Cake!! ;) Japanese, Creole/Cajun,Cuban,Italian,Vietnamise
Place... Tokyo, New Orleans,Italy,Okinawa
Next I wanna go to... Venice
Authors...Anne Rice, LM Montgomery, Anya Seton
Currently reading... Hana-Kimi
Desparately waiting for the release of... HP and the Order of the Phoenix
Magazine... Popteen,Vivi
Popteen Model... Kayo Maekawa,Aki Hatada,Megu Ishii, (former: Hana-chan)
TV show...Buffy
DoramaSweet Devil, Majo no Joken, GTO, rokuban me no Sayoko
Anime... Furuba,Rose of Versailles, Sailormoon,many others
Currently watching...Full Moon wo sagashite
Manga...Fruits Basket,Hanazakari no kimitachi he, Pafechikku!, Peach Girl,GALS, Rose of Versailles, Angel Sanctuary, Hajike B.B,Kaze to Ki no Uta
Currently reading... Hanazakari no Kimitachi he (hana-kimi)
Band... MAX,globe, Former B.B WAVES,SPEED,EARTH, Tatu
Band Member...Li-chan(MAX),Keiko(globe), Neychin,Takeshi,Hinata,Yumi(Former B.B),Hitoe,Eriko (SPEED)
Singer... Namie Amuro, Nanase Aikawa, Kahala Tomomi,Eriko Imai,AI,
Song... 'Many Precious Moments' globe,'Song for you'Wakane&Maiko,'Make up your mind'EARTH,'Vanilla' Gackt, 'Sophisticated Girl' SPEED, 'A song for XX' 'monochrome'Ayumi Hamasaki
Namie songs... 'I will', 'Be w/z you','Body Feels EXIT','Love 2000','Break the Rules', 'I have never seen'
MAX songs:'NECESSARY','BIBLE XX','Paradise Lost', 'Unforgettable','Give me a Shake', 'Tora Tora Tora','Private Crime'
Currently on repeat... 'all the things she said',Tatu, 'Sing my life', SUITE CHIC
Online Comic... Arcana?
People I respect/People that are cool
Anna Makino
Maiko Takara
Anne Rice
Jimmy Carter
Namie Amuro
Angelina Jolie
Ooh, a harem of men!
Angel Sanctuary...Secchan ;)(And I love Mad Hatter)
CLAMP...Fuuma!!!
Fruits Basket...Momiji, Ayame,Kyou
Gravitation...Shuuichi,Ryuuichi!(K is cool!! 'Na~i desu')
Kenshin...Battosai!! Hiko-sama~~!!
Yami no Matsuei...Hisoka
PEACH GIRL... Kairi
SM...Seiya
Hana-kimiNanba-senpai,Sano
Pafechikku! Daiya
VC... Lestat, Armand!
HP... Draco
And some 3D ones!
Antonio Banderas
Tom Cruise
Takeshi Sorimachi
Ryan Philippe
Kiyotaka
Gackt
Takeshi Makino (nee Kise)
And some cool girls!
Rose of Versailles...Oscar
SM... Minako, Haruka
GALS! Ran Kotobuki
Angel Sanctuary... Mad Hatter
Oh my goddess... Urd
Oh! My wonderful and precious friends!
Subaru
Lucchan
Ka-chan
Lizzie
I feel like...I'd been running as fast as I could straight towards Actor's and even after I went, towards DPIS, as hard as I could, and when I hit the wall of my parents refusal to let me go...I hit it as hard as possible and the impact flung me back to the beginning, and I haven't been able to get up, or recover from the shock of it. I really don't know what I'm doing anymore, or why. I'm back to that place where nothing really matters, where I don't have any goals, except that it's worse this time, because even then I had the far away dream of Actor's, and since that dream turned almost into reality, I feel like it's farther away than ever, so I'm left with nothing... I'm just moving thru the motions, even more than I ever was before....
I feel like...I'd been running as fast as I could straight towards Actor's and even after I went, towards DPIS, as hard as I could, and when I hit the wall of my parents refusal to let me go...I hit it as hard as possible and the impact flung me back to the beginning, and I haven't been able to get up, or recover from the shock of it. I really don't know what I'm doing anymore, or why. I'm back to that place where nothing really matters, where I don't have any goals, except that it's worse this time, because even then I had the far away dream of Actor's, and since that dream turned almost into reality, I feel like it's farther away than ever, so I'm left with nothing... I'm just moving thru the motions, even more than I ever was before....
I feel like...I'd been running as fast as I could straight towards Actor's and even after I went, towards DPIS, as hard as I could, and when I hit the wall of my parents refusal to let me go...I hit it as hard as possible and the impact flung me back to the beginning, and I haven't been able to get up, or recover from the shock of it. I really don't know what I'm doing anymore, or why. I'm back to that place where nothing really matters, where I don't have any goals, except that it's worse this time, because even then I had the far away dream of Actor's, and since that dream turned almost into reality, I feel like it's farther away than ever, so I'm left with nothing... I'm just moving thru the motions, even more than I ever was before....
Well, DPIS's homepage (http://www.revo.gr.jp/dpis) has finally been updated, reflecting the feelings and philosophy and atmosphere it had when I went in January. It also mentions Dream Planet College. *sigh* Going to the page made me feel...well, a lot of different things...like I should be there now....and also a fear that...what if I gave up my only chance...closed a door out of which I'm locked forever now? At this rate, I'm almost afraid that my going to Actor's and DPIS will become a negative experiece, in the sense that instead of moving me forward, it's gotten me stuck. I can't move past it yet, I haven't figured out how.
In a way it hurts to think about Actor's and DPIS and Makino-sensei, ect because I had this chance and I couldn't take it, and it makes me jealous of everyone who can be involved with them. I feel like I went to Okinawa, and part of my soul got stuck there, and stayed there, and now I'm trying to deal with things without part of it. I need to find a way to turn the things I felt and saw in Okinawa into a positive force...in the sense that it will help me move forward again, find a way to start to move towards the ideals I found there, even if I can't do it with them right now....