Alias...Mina, Claudia,Kamui,Skids, Eiko,Edori,A-chan
Age... 21
Status... searching?
AIM...VprClaudia
Page...
LoveImpact
Reborn Day,Spunky Heart
School... Mt. Holyoke
Zodiac...Aquarius
Blood Type... A
Chinese Zodiac... Dog
Color... Red~! And pink. And rainbows. And sparkliness
Foods... Cake!! ;) Japanese, Creole/Cajun,Cuban,Italian,Vietnamise
Place... Tokyo, New Orleans,Italy,Okinawa
Next I wanna go to... Venice
Authors...Anne Rice, LM Montgomery, Anya Seton
Currently reading... Hana-Kimi
Desparately waiting for the release of... HP and the Order of the Phoenix
Magazine... Popteen,Vivi
Popteen Model... Kayo Maekawa,Aki Hatada,Megu Ishii, (former: Hana-chan)
TV show...Buffy
DoramaSweet Devil, Majo no Joken, GTO, rokuban me no Sayoko
Anime... Furuba,Rose of Versailles, Sailormoon,many others
Currently watching...Full Moon wo sagashite
Manga...Fruits Basket,Hanazakari no kimitachi he, Pafechikku!, Peach Girl,GALS, Rose of Versailles, Angel Sanctuary, Hajike B.B,Kaze to Ki no Uta
Currently reading... Hanazakari no Kimitachi he (hana-kimi)
Band... MAX,globe, Former B.B WAVES,SPEED,EARTH, Tatu
Band Member...Li-chan(MAX),Keiko(globe), Neychin,Takeshi,Hinata,Yumi(Former B.B),Hitoe,Eriko (SPEED)
Singer... Namie Amuro, Nanase Aikawa, Kahala Tomomi,Eriko Imai,AI,
Song... 'Many Precious Moments' globe,'Song for you'Wakane&Maiko,'Make up your mind'EARTH,'Vanilla' Gackt, 'Sophisticated Girl' SPEED, 'A song for XX' 'monochrome'Ayumi Hamasaki
Namie songs... 'I will', 'Be w/z you','Body Feels EXIT','Love 2000','Break the Rules', 'I have never seen'
MAX songs:'NECESSARY','BIBLE XX','Paradise Lost', 'Unforgettable','Give me a Shake', 'Tora Tora Tora','Private Crime'
Currently on repeat... 'all the things she said',Tatu, 'Sing my life', SUITE CHIC
Online Comic... Arcana?
People I respect/People that are cool
Anna Makino
Maiko Takara
Anne Rice
Jimmy Carter
Namie Amuro
Angelina Jolie
Ooh, a harem of men!
Angel Sanctuary...Secchan ;)(And I love Mad Hatter)
CLAMP...Fuuma!!!
Fruits Basket...Momiji, Ayame,Kyou
Gravitation...Shuuichi,Ryuuichi!(K is cool!! 'Na~i desu')
Kenshin...Battosai!! Hiko-sama~~!!
Yami no Matsuei...Hisoka
PEACH GIRL... Kairi
SM...Seiya
Hana-kimiNanba-senpai,Sano
Pafechikku! Daiya
VC... Lestat, Armand!
HP... Draco
And some 3D ones!
Antonio Banderas
Tom Cruise
Takeshi Sorimachi
Ryan Philippe
Kiyotaka
Gackt
Takeshi Makino (nee Kise)
And some cool girls!
Rose of Versailles...Oscar
SM... Minako, Haruka
GALS! Ran Kotobuki
Angel Sanctuary... Mad Hatter
Oh my goddess... Urd
Oh! My wonderful and precious friends!
Subaru
Lucchan
Ka-chan
Lizzie
I forgot that I actually kinda hate vacations... Because there's nothing to do. And so you just kinda languish away in bordom and uselessness.... I hate ending a day and thinking 'What do I have to show for today? What have I done?' and having to answer 'nothing.' And yet I seem to do that so often.... And this just adds to my whole feeling of the general uselessness of my life right now. I'm not DOING anything. At least at school I have the illusion of doing something...which lasts until you realize that there's no point to any of it at all....
I guess...I have to think out why I want to go, and why they don't want me to. Ok. Everyone or at least, my parents, seem to think that my dream has 'changed completely'. That I made some big leap. But that's not how I see it at all. It just seems like the natural progression of things. I mean, of course they weren't in my head in Okinawa, so they can't understand what it was like for me. I mean, it really was like...an epifany...
Ok, I have to get started seriously thinking this all out. I mean, once something comes up in your dreams, I think that's a signal that you should start dealing with it. Ok, so none of my parents are supportive of my going to Dream Planet. And they basically forbid me to go in April. I have to figure out how to proceed now. I have to figure out a way to move past what I'm feeling now, which is just some kind of desperate anger. How dare you refuse to let me chose my own path!? What right do you have to say what's best for me, how I should live my life? If I make a mistake so be it, I'll deal with it! But I can't grow up if you don't let that happen!! And along with that there's the old frustration, that I felt even in Okinawa: Why do I have to justify my dreams to everyone! Why can't they just understand? But that's just it, they can't, and so I have to figure a way to get them to. The question is how. How do I explain it? How do I explain something that Neychin, who's been at Actor's for over half her life (15 years!) can't even explain well?
Ahh...And when I think of not being able to go in April, it's just so mortifying. I should be there! How could you deny me this!? And then it all begins over again. It's a vicious cycle that's not getting me anywhere. So I have to get out of it. I have to move. Or nothing will change. But how...?